I love being a stay-at-home Mom. I’ve always felt that it is what I was created to do. After fourteen years of this most amazing adventure, I wouldn’t change a thing.
However, I must admit that, after all this time, I thought I would be working myself out of a job. Instead, it has become even more demanding. I’m not complaining, but it has required me to do “a little improv”, as John likes to say.
I have felt discouraged for a while. It has taken me many months to get to a point where I can finally see the light. I know now that I will always, eventually, get to that point. I used to get stuck in a pit of depression that I couldn’t climb out of on my own. Now I know that all of God’s promises are true, and quite often, it is Eli who will remind me of those promises.
The Hard Work
The last nine months have meant hard work for Eli. The Family Hope Center program is meant to address all areas of his brain injury treatment. A typical day includes:
Creeping and crawling (and lots of it) – This is so good for brain development!
Oxygenation – Through masks and hyperbaric oxygen treatments.
Reflex integration – To pattern dysfunctional reflexes into higher brain stages.
Olfactory program – Smelling things! We’re trying to stimulate his sense of smell which is connected to memory function.
Inversion table – We call it the Teeter board.
Intellectual program – This is what we call school!
Several days ago, I took Eli shopping to get some new clothes. It has been a long while since he’s had new clothes. Even though he has grown some in height, his waist has only gotten smaller. So, as I helped him try on several pairs of pants and shorts, I noticed how small he really is. His muscles are tight and they pull his legs so that they are always bent.
There was a part of me that wanted to cry out for help. I wanted to sound an alarm! Doesn’t anyone else see this? Why isn’t all of his hard work producing results? He’s wasting away….
I tried not to let on to Eli that I was feeling so alarmed. But I’m afraid it turned my mood pretty sour. On the way home, he asked if we could get a treat. Who am I to say “no” to comfort food?! So we stopped to get cookies at McDonald’s.
I didn’t sleep well that night. The next morning, I talked to John about my concerns. He let me get it out and have a good cry.
Later in the morning, I was sitting in the same room with Eli as he was doing his Bible study. After he reads his Bible, he does a devotional reading from Sarah Young’s teen edition of “Jesus Calling”. He looks up the Bible verse associated with the daily reading.
Excitedly Eli said, “Mom, this Bible verse is absolutely true! Do you want to hear it?!”
I said, “Of course I do!” He read enthusiastically:
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” – 2 Corinthians 4: 16-17 (emphasis mine)
You’re right, Eli. That is absolutely true.